I miss my No. 1 fan

It’s been 5 months since my dad left us.  And still I cry each time I think of him.  He’s my greatest fan.  I miss his sweet words to me, his reminders to me to lessen smoking and drinking.  My dad was very supportive, he congratulates me each time I get a promotion or any achievement.  He always make me feel how proud he is of me.  And when I have problems, I just have to cry to him without saying anything, I don’t need to explain or justify anything, he just listens and comforts me.  I miss my dad so much, I really feel that when he left, I lost a special part of me.  I really miss my dad, especially when I want to share something, to share what I feel, to share my anger, to share my fears.  He’s always the first person who takes care of me when I’m sick, he’s the first person who greets me on my birthday, Christmas, New Year and Valentine’s day. I still send messages thru text to my dad when I miss him, yes – I send messages to his old mobile number. 

I miss you so much Daddy!  I just hope I could always be your little girl who kisses you and touches your big tummy every morning. I miss the days that you carry me and hug me tight.  You always make me feel like your baby.........I love you daddy.

Farewell to our dearest Daddy Boy

Here are the photos from my dad's farewell day. Love you DAD!

Our Farewell to our dearest Daddy Boy from Alma Cala-Buenviaje on Vimeo.

My letter to Daddy Boy

Dear Dad,

I am and will forever be thankful to God for giving you as our father. You've been a very loving father to all of us and to your APOs. I know that you know how much I love you, and how much you will be missed by our family. Alam mo Dad, you somehow prepared me before you left. From the time you whispered your last words, your goodbye to me, somehow I realize na siguro inadya mo talaga na ako mag-asikaso ng bills, funeral arrangements, death certificates, etc. I really feel sad Daddy, remember you asked me 2 days before you left? "kung okay lang ba ako?" and I said "Yes, Ako pa!" and you replied - "oo kaya mo yan, Matapang k naman" and you kissed me... yun na pala last conversation natin. Also, the next day, niyakap kita but you did not hug me back, I should have been more sensitive, I should have felt that there is something wrong, I could have brought you to hospital earlier. But that's how it is, I think, God has his own reasons and I shouldn't question HIM.

Dad - thank you.. these are the words that I kept saying to you and to myself. Thank you for the LOVE you have shown us, to Mommy and to your Apo's. Please guide our family - especially si Mommy (promise -di ko na sya aawayin), si Kuya Jo, Ate Lhet, Kuya Alex, Kuya Allan, Kuya Arnel at si Karl.

I may not have my own perfect family , but I know that you are proud of me and you support my decision. Salamat dad ha, for always believing in me. Salamat sa lahat. I will not be tired of saying thank you and I Love You even if you're gone.

I still cry when I think of you, ksi Dad, namimiss talaga kita. But I know, the pain will be over soon.

I LOVE YOU DADDY!